Howdy friends and family. The lyrics to the song "What Faith Can Do" are so fitting for the blog I am writing tonight. The song says,
"Anyone can feel the ache
You think it's more than you can take..."
That has been my day in a nutshell. To start from the beginning, last Wed. morning I woke up very dizzy. It was so bad that I couldn't get out of the bed without falling down. I was extremely nauseous and burning up! My first thought was, "Oh no, I slept wrong and a nerve in my neck is getting pinched!"
I tried to make my way to the bathroom--but without much success. Jacob caught me in the hallway. He asked if I was ok and of course Mom mode kicked in and I said yes-- just a little dizzy. In his 11 year old most compassionate voice he said, "Uh Mom, I don't think so." I told him that I thought he better get on his bike and go get Dad from work. He was gone before I could even make it to the couch.
Dave came home and helped finish getting the boys off to school and then stayed with me. We were both not sure what was going on so we called our faithful chiropractor, and got in right away. The drive alone was enough to make me want to throw up.
Doc adjusted me but said, "I think you better make an appointment to see Hugh. (Hugh is our regular physician--Dr. Holmquist.) We did and I told him my symptoms. He took my Blood Pressure, checked my ears...everything was fine. He then suggested we do some blood work. No problem! The nurse came in and took some blood and we returned home to wait for results--which should have come in on Friday.
Well, Friday came and no phone call so I called in to see if they had anything. The answer--"No, sorry. Nothing yet." Saturday came and went, Sunday spun through...nothing, Monday whirled around me-still no phone call with results. Today, woke up at 5:50 burning up, head pounding, room spinning like I had just gotten off the merry go round and extremely nauseous. I immediately woke up Dave and he got me some Motrin and water and a cracker. The cracker still lays on the headboard. I couldn't chew it to save my life. I thought for sure that it must be a flu bug that is going around. I laid there for the next hour unable to get off the dizzy kick. As Dave was preparing to leave for work at 7, I told him he better stick around and make sure the kids got to school ok. He did and I stayed in bed. At 9:20 I got up to make my way to the kitchen to take more medicine and about 20 minutes later the dizziness subsided. I continued on with my day plans which included heading to Broken Bow to meet a prospective host family and have lunch with my Mom.
On the way there, Dave called me as I was about to drive out of service and told me the dr. office called and needed to speak with me. When I was finally able to get back into service, I immediately called them back. The nurse gave me the test results. Mono test came back negative, CBC was fine, some other test was fine, but there was one test that came back not so good...the Thyroid test. I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism.
"It doesn't matter what you've heard
Impossible is not a word
It's just a reason
For someone not to try
Everybody's scared to death..."
Ya, that's me. Scared to death. What did I do to cause this? How did it happen? Why me? Well, to answer one question: its hereditary. There is nothing I could have done to cause it.
To say the least, today was overwhelming...
"But you're stronger
Stronger than you know"
There were other factors that played into today--finding out that I was housing a family of mice in my dryer hose, Caleb's spacer cutting his tongue open because it broke off, remembering 12 years ago that today was the day I buried my daughter, but to say the least, I was heart broken--felt like the sky was falling down around me.
"Don't you give up now
The sun will soon be shining"
That's what I am holding on to. The sun will be shining tomorrow.
"I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do
That's what faith can do"
I have had other serious conditions that were going to require major surgery happen to me and I have seen miracles just happen in my own life that doctors could not answer for. So for now, this mountain is hard to face. But I will climb this mountain. I will come out on top. Tomorrow will be better.
"You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining..
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise
I will get through this new journey that I am travelling down. But please, be in prayer for me. I am believing for a complete miracle. From my 'underactive' picture window to yours, have a great day.
